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E-Story: How A Medical Report Made Me Realize My Love For Him

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Tears were rolling down my cheeks as I held the white piece of paper in my hands. My world was smashed to smithereens and I was trembling with disgust. All the anger, frustration and agony melted away in a few minutes. I could sense darkness all around and suddenly the happenings of the past few months flashed in front of my eyes.

I was married to Rahul for eight years. Pari was born in second year of our marriage, life changed since then. I had to join back work when Pari turned eight months. Sustaining a decent life in a metro city was not easy so I had to leave Pari in the care of her nani. Rahul was working as a middle level manager in an MNC in Delhi, his job was demanding and he had to work for long hours. Meeting deadlines and targets always kept him on his toes.

Rahul and I had different working hours in our offices. I left for office early and returned early. Despite being exhausted after a hectic day, I always liked to spend the evening time with Pari. I was neck deep in mommy guilt that I was unable to spend time with my daughter; my heart was always full of gratitude for my mother who was the best nani in the world. Pari was more attached to her nani and used to be happy and comfortable in her company.

Amid all this, Rahul and I were drifting apart from each other. We were just leading our lives to meet ends; the emotional bonding was waning down. It was a relationship of convenience for us and the apathy was bizarre. Weekends were full of arguments and bickering over trivial issues so most of the time we were not even talking to each other. Two estranged people living under the same roof but without any equation, both were always ready to point out flaws of each other.

Once in the middle of the night, he complained of mild abdomen pain and uneasiness which was ignored by me as I took it as normal acidity issue. After few days, Rahul started feeling uneasy and nauseatic most of the times. One day after having his dinner he threw away the food with stains of blood in it; this took the situation to the brim.

 

Next day, we consulted a doctor in a private hospital in Gurgaon, the following two weeks were spent in getting all medical tests and diagnosis done.

 

Rahul, my husband and life partner was diagnosed with cancer of stomach. We hugged each other tightly in the hospital foyer and cried, the diagnosis changed all the contours of our future relationship. My head hangs in shame when I see that it took me so many years to realize my true love and feelings for my husband. Our finances have taken a sharp downturn but love has increased manifold. All elements of my life are same; still the whole landscape has changed. Sadly, the realization happened with the diagnosis of this malignancy when I know that every moment he is drifting apart from me. We always say that 'time flies,' but I am painfully experiencing it. Now, I am just trying to conserve memories of each moment I spent with him.

 

He is undergoing the first cycle of chemotherapy right now and responding well to it. There is still a glimmer of hope in my heart that Rahul will never leave us alone.

 

I want to sincerely request every married couple to cherish each moment of togetherness and count your blessings. Time and tide wait for none. You never know what surprise the next moment holds for you, sometimes life doesn't give a chance to even repent.

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