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I am an Indian guy living and working in the US. It started in the June of 2017. I was a single guy living the dream life, working in a Fortune 500 company in Chicago. I went to visit my friend in Boston, and enjoyed everything there except a singular incident - the misbehavior of a waitress at a restaurant we went to. The waitress behaved well with my friend but was rude with me and laughed at me. This annoyed me and I did not tip her, determined not to come back to the restaurant at any cost. When I flew back to Chicago, I was paranoid, thinking that the flight attendants and crew were watching and profiling me due to my brown skin. A few days passed. I was feeling lonely and was advised to make new friends in Chicago. I met a potential roommate in early June, and spent 6 hours befriending him in Chicago. I bared my heart out to him over alcohol, confiding in him my deepest and darkest secrets. I thought I had made a friend for life, but later found out that the person was a sociopath. He didn’t care about me and about what I told him. I had just told all my secrets to the sociopath. This broke me. I tried to cry but only a single tear rolled down my eye. I requested the landlord to not allow the guy to live in the house. The landlord agreed and I was at peace for a few days. But I was still scared of the guy and what he could do with the information I gave him. Then, a new guy moved in. That guy laughed at me when he saw me and told me “I know where you work” in a chilling voice. The landlord and my other roommate started laughing at me. I was horrified and concluded that the sociopath had spread some information about me to the new guy, landlord and my other roommate. I was worried because my parents were coming to my house to visit me, and I was scared of what the new guy could blackmail them and me with. I tried to find a new apartment but the new landlord seemed to know me and laughed at me too. I was now terrified and decided to stay in the same apartment, as I had no other options. I went to office the next day and heard people laughing at me behind my back. I heard my manager and colleagues laughing at me. I was in disbelief and shell shocked. My parents landed in Chicago. I told them everything about how people were laughing at me , but they refused to believe me. They said I was imagining things. Then the next day I went to work and on the way to work I saw people in the streets of Chicago laughing at me and saying nasty things about me. I panicked and threw my phone into the dustbin because I thought the police were tracking me (for no reason). I bought a new phone and removed all my old contacts. I tried to stay under the radar for as long as I could. But wherever I went, people would laugh at me. They would point and make sarcastic comments and laugh at me. I went to the temple to volunteer and while I was volunteering I saw people laugh at me. That hurt me because I loved volunteering at the temple. I lost faith in god. I didn’t know why the world had become so cruel all of a sudden. My parents took me to a doctor. He said it was work stress ( but he was winking and laughing at me). I went back to work. My manager would shout at me because I was unable to work because everybody was laughing at me everyday. She put me on a performance improvement plan. I worked my ass off, ignored everyone and got good reviews in the PIP. People were still laughing at me. But I was someone now. I had become a man again. I had proved that even if the world laughs at me, I can become successful. Thus 6 months passed. I ignored the laughter as much as I could. However other delusions started entering my mind. I thought my parents were aliens and I was the only human being left on Earth. I struggled with other delusions. I went to India for a month and suffered more hallucinations there, but I was used to the laughter and could bear it better now. I came back to Chicago in January 2018. Then the worst phase started. It was freezing cold in Chicago and the visual and sensory hallucinations began. I started seeing ghosts at night, I started feeling ghosts entering my body and possessing me. The feeling of demonic possession devastated me. My mother came to visit me in Chicago around this time. I thought she was a ghost as the government had killed my parents last June. The hallucinations persisted even in my dreams, people laughed at me there as well. One chilly morning, I beat up my mother (thinking I was Hanuman (a Hindu god) and she was the devil) and ran out of the apartment. I finally was free and ran barefoot on the cold pavement. The police came. They put me in handcuffs. They took me to hospital. I was screaming that I hadn’t done anything wrong. Then I lost consciousness and slept. The next few days were blurry. I heard voices laughing at me, but they became weaker. The doctor would pop pills in my mouth every night. I was in hospital for a week. I went on a leave of absence from work. I realized that I had schizophrenia. The medicine would make me very drowsy and sleepy. But it helped make the voices go away. I switched to a new doctor and new medicine , and felt better. I have been on medication for over a year now. I’m working well and received a performance bonus for last year. My new boss respects me and considers me his best staff. There is no cure for schizophrenia. It can only be treated. But I know now that the world does not laugh at me. I know now that I am strong and brave. I know now that I am a man. And I know that I will keep fighting. Until the very end.
Krishna has protected me and saved me. Krishna Nee Begane Baro (Translation - Krishna, you please come quickly). I got a Senior role this year with a 100K USD Total Compensation increase from my last job at a much better company. I’m cured of the hallucinations and delusions due to effective medication and psychiatric care.
 
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I saw my friend wife with schizophrenia , they live right next to our apartment in 2011. I had even kept my wife to look after her at one instance. Later I learnt how dangerous it was and how much risk it is to be with a schizophrenia person. My friend got married to her, without knowing that she had this issue. He divorced her and know is happily married again . He went through hell , she used to always look at wall and picture frames, even used to forget going to rest rooms.

 

Our mind is boon when it is working properly, and curse to everyone when its not working properly 

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7 minutes ago, ranam_007 said:

meditation is one best medicine for all, give it a try as well

how bro..?

every one has some neuro chemical harmons such as dopamine serotonin oxytocin…etc. there are many chemicals generate in our brain which defines our behavior…

what anti depressant pills do is exactly improve or balance those chemicals in our brain…

as far as i know schizophrenia also one of the chemical imbalance in brain…how meditation will cure it..?

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3 hours ago, Shameless said:
I am an Indian guy living and working in the US. It started in the June of 2017. I was a single guy living the dream life, working in a Fortune 500 company in Chicago. I went to visit my friend in Boston, and enjoyed everything there except a singular incident - the misbehavior of a waitress at a restaurant we went to. The waitress behaved well with my friend but was rude with me and laughed at me. This annoyed me and I did not tip her, determined not to come back to the restaurant at any cost. When I flew back to Chicago, I was paranoid, thinking that the flight attendants and crew were watching and profiling me due to my brown skin. A few days passed. I was feeling lonely and was advised to make new friends in Chicago. I met a potential roommate in early June, and spent 6 hours befriending him in Chicago. I bared my heart out to him over alcohol, confiding in him my deepest and darkest secrets. I thought I had made a friend for life, but later found out that the person was a sociopath. He didn’t care about me and about what I told him. I had just told all my secrets to the sociopath. This broke me. I tried to cry but only a single tear rolled down my eye. I requested the landlord to not allow the guy to live in the house. The landlord agreed and I was at peace for a few days. But I was still scared of the guy and what he could do with the information I gave him. Then, a new guy moved in. That guy laughed at me when he saw me and told me “I know where you work” in a chilling voice. The landlord and my other roommate started laughing at me. I was horrified and concluded that the sociopath had spread some information about me to the new guy, landlord and my other roommate. I was worried because my parents were coming to my house to visit me, and I was scared of what the new guy could blackmail them and me with. I tried to find a new apartment but the new landlord seemed to know me and laughed at me too. I was now terrified and decided to stay in the same apartment, as I had no other options. I went to office the next day and heard people laughing at me behind my back. I heard my manager and colleagues laughing at me. I was in disbelief and shell shocked. My parents landed in Chicago. I told them everything about how people were laughing at me , but they refused to believe me. They said I was imagining things. Then the next day I went to work and on the way to work I saw people in the streets of Chicago laughing at me and saying nasty things about me. I panicked and threw my phone into the dustbin because I thought the police were tracking me (for no reason). I bought a new phone and removed all my old contacts. I tried to stay under the radar for as long as I could. But wherever I went, people would laugh at me. They would point and make sarcastic comments and laugh at me. I went to the temple to volunteer and while I was volunteering I saw people laugh at me. That hurt me because I loved volunteering at the temple. I lost faith in god. I didn’t know why the world had become so cruel all of a sudden. My parents took me to a doctor. He said it was work stress ( but he was winking and laughing at me). I went back to work. My manager would shout at me because I was unable to work because everybody was laughing at me everyday. She put me on a performance improvement plan. I worked my ass off, ignored everyone and got good reviews in the PIP. People were still laughing at me. But I was someone now. I had become a man again. I had proved that even if the world laughs at me, I can become successful. Thus 6 months passed. I ignored the laughter as much as I could. However other delusions started entering my mind. I thought my parents were aliens and I was the only human being left on Earth. I struggled with other delusions. I went to India for a month and suffered more hallucinations there, but I was used to the laughter and could bear it better now. I came back to Chicago in January 2018. Then the worst phase started. It was freezing cold in Chicago and the visual and sensory hallucinations began. I started seeing ghosts at night, I started feeling ghosts entering my body and possessing me. The feeling of demonic possession devastated me. My mother came to visit me in Chicago around this time. I thought she was a ghost as the government had killed my parents last June. The hallucinations persisted even in my dreams, people laughed at me there as well. One chilly morning, I beat up my mother (thinking I was Hanuman (a Hindu god) and she was the devil) and ran out of the apartment. I finally was free and ran barefoot on the cold pavement. The police came. They put me in handcuffs. They took me to hospital. I was screaming that I hadn’t done anything wrong. Then I lost consciousness and slept. The next few days were blurry. I heard voices laughing at me, but they became weaker. The doctor would pop pills in my mouth every night. I was in hospital for a week. I went on a leave of absence from work. I realized that I had schizophrenia. The medicine would make me very drowsy and sleepy. But it helped make the voices go away. I switched to a new doctor and new medicine , and felt better. I have been on medication for over a year now. I’m working well and received a performance bonus for last year. My new boss respects me and considers me his best staff. There is no cure for schizophrenia. It can only be treated. But I know now that the world does not laugh at me. I know now that I am strong and brave. I know now that I am a man. And I know that I will keep fighting. Until the very end.
Krishna has protected me and saved me. Krishna Nee Begane Baro (Translation - Krishna, you please come quickly). I got a Senior role this year with a 100K USD Total Compensation increase from my last job at a much better company. I’m cured of the hallucinations and delusions due to effective medication and psychiatric care.
 
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Matter in 2 lines

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1 hour ago, dasari4kntr said:

how bro..?

every one has some neuro chemical harmons such as dopamine serotonin oxytocin…etc. there are many chemicals generate in our brain which defines our behavior…

what anti depressant pills do is exactly improve or balance those chemicals in our brain…

as far as i know schizophrenia also one of the chemical imbalance in brain…how meditation will cure it..?

Everything by practice

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Just now, Mancode said:

annaya matter in 3 lines plz.....

2 lines lo chepalev ani oka extra line icha 

Indian guy in Chicago suffering with schizophrenia and he shared his symptoms

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